I know it sounds cheesy, but I am so thankful for my family. Joe and I have wrestled to make a castle out of shit. We've been through hell together and we ended up with these three vibrant, intelligent, funny children and it just doesn't seem fair. How did they grow so beautifully in the midst of our chaos? Why were WE chosen to nurture them?
God must truly see the hidden things in us because we didn't earn them by having it all together. Despite that we are overflowingly grateful for them.
I've been a little teary today, thinking about how close we came to losing Daisy. I sat and watched her play, suck on oranges and follow her brother in and out of every room in the house. I was struck with the joy spilling out of her pores. I definitely had to sit back for a moment and thank Jesus for her life. What if we had missed out on these last 5 months? What if we hadn't gotten to see her walk, jump, belly laugh, give us cute little kisses, splash in the bathtub and steal every water bottle she sees? Life would be empty. We would be broken.
Aravis and Judah fight a lot and it gets so frustrating. Sometimes I want to run outside and scream at nothing just to get all that nasty energy out of me. I'm careful with my kids, but I have learned why parents go crazy. Still, life without either of them would be just as empty. I have never loved anything the way I love my kids. It's a very different kind of love... it's pure crazy. Cause who loves creatures who make them feel like running into a brick wall?
I am incredibly grateful for Joe. This is the first time in our marriage that I am willing to step away from life as I know it and engage in adventure with him. I can finally trust him. And we have paid a very steep price for safety in our marriage. We have fought and struggled and died to ourselves over and over again. I have loved him when he didn't love me. I have stood my ground even when it caused a fight. I have clung to him and I have released him. Jesus has torn us down and rebuilt us.
That is holy.
I'm thankful for a lot of things, for a lot of people, but my family is the only thing I could never do without. If we don't have money for Christmas presents this year, we will still have each other. If we find ourselves with NOTHING we will still have EVERYTHING.
What are you thankful for?