how do you give yourself
back to someone
that someone is you?”
It’s all grit and gentle thoughts, forgiveness and saying what you need to say, softness and sharp clarity, surrender and honesty. It is always always always a giving back because you have never really left you. You’ve just been silent, or lost, or afraid to balance your dark with your light. You may have scattered your pieces everywhere with everyone and forgotten that you are a healer who always regenerates. You might still feel battered, or fragmented, or gun shy, but none of that has anything to do with the relationship that is you and you.
If I could I would thank every person who helped me unlock the parts of me that were so desperate to be wanted. Whatever I thought I was holding back with human presence, I wasn’t. It was all still there, churning in me and leaking out. But gentle, kind, and honest people let me explore myself with them. They let me read my own soul while I was searching through theirs. And that is a gift I didn’t know I needed.
Take the step - or the whole freaking journey - to give yourself back to you. Because the truth is, babes, once you have yourself again you’ll wonder why you ever wanted someone else to have you. You’ll understand what every love story has ever been truly getting at, what every artist has ever been really creating. Love that wells up inside your soul and then burns away all the edges, and hems, and barriers that kept you distracted - that shit is powerful. Be that force. But first be a soft river of forgiveness, find your own instinctive, compassionate rituals - the kinds that move like waves over glass until all of it’s broken edges are smooth enough to run your fingers over and not be cut. It seems scary now, but I promise, I promise you’ll never be more alive than you are when you are yours.