“You are your medicine.”
/ S.C. Lourie
Things I’ve learned through doing deep heart work in the middle of heartbreak, loss, and reclaiming myself:
🌵 I wasn’t the best version of me for a long time & that’s ok. I lost a lot because of the way grief moved through me, but I can have compassion for myself & others. Some relationships don’t outlast emotional hurricanes, but maybe they weren’t meant to.
🌵 Someone said something to me and about me once in their own grief & anger that offended the hell out of me. I pushed back on it. Hard. But it keeps coming back to me & I’m realizing now that they were right. It stung when they said it because I already felt so lost, but I can hear it with clarity now.
🌵 Healing is a mess. It is painful, & uncomfortable, & requires a daily cleaning out of the wound. It limits the way we move & live, making it hard to even be human some days. And I’m okay with that. I know I’m slowly working my way into a new kind of life. I know it’s going to cost me the old life.
🌵 Mistakes are a given. They ARE going to happen & they’re going to happen often. I stopped trying to live perfectly & made peace with the mistakes I am bound to make. That was the most liberating decision.
🌵 Energy matters. I’ve known almost right away who I vibe with & I’ve learned how to trust that. Wherever I have a deep, energetic connection with someone there is opportunity for a massive amount of healing or freedom. We are meant to serve love to one another & it comes in so many different ways. The universe is always moving forward & I’m learning how to follow.
🌵 I’m a good mom. I’ve worked my ass off for years to trust that (just ask @ginadpollard). I’m not perfect & I don’t pretend to be, but my kids know how fiercely loved they are & how free they are to be themselves. They are my first thing. Always. I will mama wolf my way all the way home with them & they never have to doubt that.
🌵 Forgiveness has nothing to do with forgetting, but everything to do with setting myself free. It’s the daily decision to cut the rope and let people float away. It’s the intentional practice of refusing to poison myself with resentment & I am free-er because of that.